Should I be surprised, be upset or just ignore the changes? Perplexed as I was I knew I did not want to go down the road to destruction.
You go high
Who Am I?
Am I trapped in a world of in between? Who am I really?' I still say I am more like an American but then again I am not there, I do not live there anymore, and for some reason I cannot be like an American here in England just because... so, maybe I am an in between? Or maybe hybrid of the two?
Week 40 I am still dancing in the water
Some women at my swimming class told me that I was brave to keep swimming despite being due tomorrow. But I continue to swim and walk because I am hoping to avoid having my delivery medically induced.
I swallowed a watermelon, my 9 months pregnancy
I could not believe my belly has grown so much! It looks like I just swallowed a watermelon! I am now on week 40, and I feel very heavy now. I can barely walk. I am due in 3 days but the midwife told me they will induce me before my due date. I really feel like my belly is like a water balloon and according to whattoexpect.com the size of my belly now is the size of a small pumpkin!
Why can’t I remember my dad now? Part 2
It’s been twenty years already but it still feels just like yesterday. While New Year’s eve used to be an occasion for a fun party, the night of December 31st became instead a moment to remember dad’s death – and to celebrate his life. He only lasted 10 hours after the heart attack began, and his last words were “Into thy hands I commend my spirit." He said he wanted to go home, and at 10pm, he did.
Why can’t I remember my dad now? Part 1
It's been twenty years since my dad passed away on eve of the new millennium. As the years passed by I am gradually losing my memory of him - sometimes I can even barely remember what he looked like unless I look at his old photos. Is this normal? Is it really possible to forget the image of someone as close as your father?Â
Zero brown skin; what strikes me here
I did not see any brown skin, Pacific Islanders or Asian staff member at the hospital that we went to on my first appointment with my midwife. Although I already know that this is a heavily white British populated area, I still thought I would see a few Filipino nurses, but there weren't any.
Cravings, Curiosity and Loneliness
I was craving Filipino food, but then I realized that the food that I used to take for granted in California now suddenly became very essential in my daily diet. In the weeks that followed, the euphoria wears off and I was a bit nostalgic about my life in the US.
Misconception
My pregnancy was not planned at all, but like many other women I've thought about it and wanted to have a child one day. However, I did not expect it will come now and not this quick. When the test result was positive. I do not know how or what I felt at that moment - I was just STUNNED! On the one hand, I was grinning, I was so happy, but on the other hand I was so scared that Michael will get upset or might turn his back and not take responsibility.
Effe moves to the UK 