So, here we are; she got a doll in a buggy. She said, “Nanay, I want to take the baby for a walk” but she let go of the buggy with the doll in prompting it to roll down the hill.
Naked doll and buggy
You go high
Should I be surprised, be upset or just ignore the changes? Perplexed as I was I knew I did not want to go down the road to destruction.
Who Am I?
Am I trapped in a world of in between? Who am I really?' I still say I am more like an American but then again I am not there, I do not live there anymore, and for some reason I cannot be like an American here in England just because... so, maybe I am an in between? Or maybe hybrid of the two?
Zero brown skin; what strikes me here
I did not see any brown skin, Pacific Islanders or Asian staff member at the hospital that we went to on my first appointment with my midwife. Although I already know that this is a heavily white British populated area, I still thought I would see a few Filipino nurses, but there weren't any.
Cravings, Curiosity and Loneliness
I was craving Filipino food, but then I realized that the food that I used to take for granted in California now suddenly became very essential in my daily diet. In the weeks that followed, the euphoria wears off and I was a bit nostalgic about my life in the US.
Pretty bad landing
I was starving and a bit dizzy and exhausted from a bad landing by the time I arrived at the waiting area at Heathrow where my husband was waiting for me. It was wet, cold, and windy which made it more difficult for the pilot to maneuver. We were up in the air again for another 15 minutes after the first try before we were able to land.
Misconception
My pregnancy was not planned at all, but like many other women I've thought about it and wanted to have a child one day. However, I did not expect it will come now and not this quick. When the test result was positive. I do not know how or what I felt at that moment - I was just STUNNED! On the one hand, I was grinning, I was so happy, but on the other hand I was so scared that Michael will get upset or might turn his back and not take responsibility.
Sayonara Los Angeles
Home is really where the heart is and I know California has been my home for the past thirteen years, but it is also time to build my new home with Michael and our baby. Goodbye for now, Los Angeles, and see you some other time.
Effe moves to the UK 