You go high

Should I be surprised, be upset or just ignore the changes? Perplexed as I was I knew I did not want to go down the road to destruction.

Happy birthday was indeed a happy birthday

She was giggling and quivering as we sang the happy birthday song and I asked her if she was happy to which she nodded as she smiled in front of her guests. It was so amusing to see her face actually happy as she blew the candles on her peppa pig cake.

Who Am I?

Am I trapped in a world of in between? Who am I really?' I still say I am more like an American but then again I am not there, I do not live there anymore, and for some reason I cannot be like an American here in England just because... so, maybe I am an in between? Or maybe hybrid of the two?

If you are a mother, be a mother first

While I am excited to see my baby and hold him/her in my arms, my worry now is the pain of giving birth and my capability as a mother. I'm questioning myself. Can I do it? Will I be good enough? I realized that I have not fully accepted motherhood. My mind is still all over the place and I am afraid that I won't be able to perform my duty if I still keep thinking about my career and the things that I still want to do. Since I have been given this opportunity to be a mother, then I think I should be a mother first.